It is amazing –
How strong you stand when you are so fragile inside…!
They see you as a mountain, blooming, glittering, sparkling – always smiling.
Behind those smiles, you hide everything.
Sacrifices…!
and then you find, you are alone in this endless ocean, stranded.
God, you must have filled me with so much of life. Because, even after so much dying, I am not dead yet.
Since that revelation – I know God, I am you and you are me.
And that’s the only reason that I accept everything.
I am learning to be gentle,
to be patient,
to not light fires
when I can not see the stars…!
Every time I watch this, tears muster in my eyes – not of sadness, not of happiness; but of FULLNESS. Can’t explain what fullness is, but it is fullness.
And I watch this (or listen to Kun Faya Kun) every time I feel winner, every time.
Where am I? What am I doing? No updates, no scribbles, no essays. I am here only, pulsating like a bright star – burning, sparkling, shining…!!!
Living? Who wants living, when you are addicted to killing yourself…!
I am working on my life work. I’ve named my life work – Mission : Forbes. It is in its womb phase currently. The internals are already in motion. I’ll start my expedition on 01 May 2022. The goal is to create an army of multimillionaires. The ultimate vision is to scout, cultivate, and create a billionaire – who will feature in the Forbes Billionaire List.
The primary aim is to meet 1000 aspiring individuals in the next 5 years.
I am thinking long – 25 to 50 years.
The thing I want to talk here is this – To build a giant, you have to be a giant first. Outside world is only a reflection of your inside world. You can only create what is inside you. Everyone is born with different things inside them. But at some point in your life, you have to make a decision to build yourself from the inside. You have to cultivate yourself. To build yourself from the inside, you can not do it in one or two days. You have to spend years with yourself. Meticulously, you have to put drop and drop and drop – day and everyday. Good days, bad days, bright days, dull days – you have to put the drop. Your life is made up of many things and not a single thing. You have to check all the aspects of your life. The most important is your own perception towards yourself.
But to manifest your own inside reality to the outside world, you have to take actions. Actions are the most important things in this world. Actions are not the end product itself, they are tiny little experiments to gain feedback from each interaction.
And when the inside world meets the outside world, it is a bliss.
Since previous 2 months, I have been scarce on time. My Meditations, My Workouts, My Stock Studies and Research are my primary focuses. They take around 8 hours collectively daily. Other times, 4 hours daily, I am into my new life goal, working for it, taking care of each tiny detail of it. Along with them, I have family obligations as well. To be true, I don’t have time to look at the phone these days as well. Most of the calls get unanswered, no interactions on whatsapp, instagram, snapchat, or anywhere. I am so scarce on time that I haven’t got a time to read my favorite author’s books, P. G. Wodehouse. TV series and movies are out of the question anyways. I haven’t taken a personal rest day since previous 2 months. All breaks goes for the family obligations only. And the most important thing, to accommodate all these, I am waking up at 4.30am. Can you believe, Rupesh, the one, whose whole life went by waking up at 11am is waking up at 4.30am!?
But my dear reader, I must tell you that I am happiest at this stage of my life. I must tell you that it is a hard work, but it is satisfying.
There is a void, and it will be there. But instead of looking at it as a void, I look at it as my superpower. Knowing that somewhere dwells a beautiful soul which purifies me.
All the very good fortune to Mission : Forbes. I am grateful of the Universe to give me the opportunity to pursue it.
Adios…
God, I am speechless. I am scattered in millions of light rays. I am breathing millions of light rays.
God himself liked my photos.
Laurent Nivalle himself. From his personal diary account.
Today, my artistic journey is fulfilled – as if kill everything art related from me, and I still will be happy for the rest of my life. See yourself.
I wanted to write a long essay, but no, I can not contain myself. Who cares for likes and reach and followers now!!! I have reached nirvana…!
I was so obsessed with him that I used to spend nights and nights going through his photographs. Here are a couple of screenshots from way back.
Look, I can not even write… … …
It was not about throwing some filter, or color toning, or editing (I used to think that it was, fool I was) – It was way more than anything. To click a photograph, you have to become one. It must come out of you.
I can not write more because I can not gather my thoughts because of the happiness. If gathered thoughts are truth, aren’t un-gathered thoughts the eternal realities…!
yes, you burn.
but don’t forget,
like a star, you shine…
God, this high…! 🔥🔥🔥