I am out of it, I guess. Because nothing is there. Still, I’ll give an RT-PCR test on May 5.

If anyone asks me what advice will I give to my 20 year old self – I have a few things in my mind.
Don’t hold back. Give everything. Throw yourself. Dive. Don’t be afraid of dying, live. Live for the present. Nothing matters. Future? There is no future which you could hold onto. Don’t think that you are not old enough, don’t think that you’ll do anything when you grow up, don’t postpone beautiful things for the future. Reveal your vices, embrace your deepest darkness. Why? Why is that the few things you think are the vices but after some occasion they would become sacred? No, nothing is a vice or merit. Whatever you crave, it is the sacred.

A secret – those things you think are sacred, you think that you should hold on to them for some future special occasion – understand that everything you crave is sacred the moment you want them, even if they are the vilest things. No future special occasion is worth it if they are held back for some unknown future. Who knows, the future may not come. And who knows, if you embrace those vices (or sacred things), the future may stand on your side.

Because you too know that you don’t have a regret for the things you did – but you regret for the things you held back.

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Here’s a beauty – Narcotica by AKA AKA
This builds up, and builds up, and builds up, and flows after 3:50. But don’t jump directly to 3:50, listen, listen from start. Let it build up.